Entry Number 1

Right after my last class, I got home fast and immediately turned on my laptop. I'm excited and I don't know why. Maybe because I wanted to talk to him again. I really enjoyed my chat yesterday with him. 

It was my first time in the site. Of course, I'm still adjusting and learning all about it. I entered every chat rooms and try to be friendly as possible. I want to find someone whose funny and enjoyable to talk with. And I actually found one. Yeah, it's him. The both of us were from the same country. We spoke the same language and grew up at the same culture so it's not really hard to have a conversation with him. 

He's an anime lover and so was I. We babble about many things - favorite animes and personal stuffs. He's older than me about ten years or so. He's currently living in the Middle East, working. I don't know his job or where's the exact city he's in. He doesn't want to tell me so I leave it like that. We talked 'till morning. Morning from my country and night in his.

I was greeted by the others the moment I got inside the room. Yesterday, there's only him and me inside the room. But today was different, there are about 6 people whom I didn't know and he's not here yet. I'm disappointed but I kept my cool. I introduced myself telling that I'm just a newbie. They welcomed me happily.

They are good people and I smiled. I can't keep up with their conversations at first but after getting used to them, I did. I was enjoying myself with their company until he came. Oh sh!t he's here! I don't know what to say so I kept silent.

He was also hailed by them(the other users). 

That's when I realize that I have no place in him. He's known by everyone that I didn't got the chance to say hi to him. He didn't noticed me. Or maybe he doesn't even remember me. Again, I was left alone at the corner, just watching their discussion. 

I was getting my hopes down when he suddenly mentioned me. 

"yo! You're here! Have you watched the anime I mentioned this morning?" He's talking about 'The World God Only Knows'. He said it was so good that I have to watch it.

I got tensed. He's talking to me! Nervously, I replied, "Uhm, no sorry. I'll watched it later. I still have to download it."

"Oh yeah? Good luck then. Tell me about it afterwards."

And then that's the start of our chitchat...

Entry 1. June 17 2013. Monday.

Entry Number 0

It's so hard to have a crush on someone you didn't even know if he really exist. Yeah, I know the feeling, 'cause I have one. I don't know what I saw in him for me to feel this way. He's old, he works and I don't know if he's really a guy (there's a chance that he's really a 'she'.) Who knows? We were just a chat mate. Sigh. I don't understand myself. Why am I like this?

The first time I met him was on June 16 - in a chat site. Yeah that's right, I didn't saw him in person, and I think I'll never have a chance to do so. He lived in a distant country where I don't even know where. We are strangers.

drrrchat.com turned my world upside down. I met a lot of people and gained friends. It's like I'm living a new whole life. My life before I stumbled upon that site was dull and boring. I wake up each morning, take a bath, go to school, eat and sleep. It's simple and I hate it.

In university, I'm a loner. But it's not like I didn't wished for that. I really wanted to be alone - because I never saw one person I desired to be with. They are a bunch of serious individuals. Serious about life, about college, about everything. Yeah, maybe I'm the weird one. 

And I've became worse after I got addicted to internet. I just want to be lock at a room and spend the entire day watching animes, reading mangas and surfing the net. Yeah, I'm not really normal. Well, who cares? I want to lead my life like that and I really like it! 

Then one day, someone message me at my yahoo account if I want to be part of Dollars. Being a durarara fan I am, of course I agreed. 

And that's the start of everything…

Entry 0. June 26 2013. 3:20 PM Wednesday.