It's so hard to have a crush on someone you didn't even know if he really exist. Yeah, I know the feeling, 'cause I have one. I don't know what I saw in him for me to feel this way. He's old, he works and I don't know if he's really a guy (there's a chance that he's really a 'she'.) Who knows? We were just a chat mate. Sigh. I don't understand myself. Why am I like this?
The first time I met him was on June 16 - in a chat site. Yeah that's right, I didn't saw him in person, and I think I'll never have a chance to do so. He lived in a distant country where I don't even know where. We are strangers.
drrrchat.com turned my world upside down. I met a lot of people and gained friends. It's like I'm living a new whole life. My life before I stumbled upon that site was dull and boring. I wake up each morning, take a bath, go to school, eat and sleep. It's simple and I hate it.
In university, I'm a loner. But it's not like I didn't wished for that. I really wanted to be alone - because I never saw one person I desired to be with. They are a bunch of serious individuals. Serious about life, about college, about everything. Yeah, maybe I'm the weird one.
And I've became worse after I got addicted to internet. I just want to be lock at a room and spend the entire day watching animes, reading mangas and surfing the net. Yeah, I'm not really normal. Well, who cares? I want to lead my life like that and I really like it!
Then one day, someone message me at my yahoo account if I want to be part of Dollars. Being a durarara fan I am, of course I agreed.
And that's the start of everything…
Entry 0. June 26 2013. 3:20 PM Wednesday.
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